Why “I QUIT” Trying to Build a Platform…5 Reasons, to Be Exact
Mark 16:15 And he said to them, “Go into all the world and proclaim the gospel to the whole creation.”
You Can’t Fire Me. I QUIT.
And really, I have only just started.
Recently, I expanded from a toe dip in the pool of social media to a knee-deep wade. I fell in love with a fledgling magazine, and I got Instagram and Twitter accounts to help promote them. So, I blame them for my new-found dilemma…only partially, okay-not really.
But anyway, I figured, hey why not? Lots of people promote their blog writing and whatever else out there, and it’s a great outlet for sharing gospel truth. Why not me too?
I’ll tell ya why not.
I CAN’T handle it.
When I made the switch to a mindset of “Building a Platform” instead of simply “Building Up” someone else, something turned ugly in me. Ugly like, ginormous-bucket-of-black-paint-dumped-on-sparkling-beautiful-white-bride kind of ugly. The comparison and competition twins showed up on my doorstep. It really wasn’t pretty.
You Can Run and Tell THAT, Homeboy
So, here’s the deal. I am a believer in Jesus first, and I am a writer, second. I am passionate about sharing Jesus, and I am passionate about writing and speaking truth. I LOVE any opportunity I can share Jesus and truth… BUT, I am not without corruption.
Psst-here’s a little secret I want to tell you, and no one else… I am sometimes jealous of other writers or speakers with a captive audience.
There. I said it. But honestly, jealousy over building a platform to share Jesus is “…so DUMB…really dumb. For Real,” as American Philosopher, Antoine Dodson once said.
I want others to love Jesus and my writing as much as I do. I want the words I write succeed for Him. And even though I want more opportunities to “proclaim the gospel to the whole creation”, I WON’T pursue them with tainted motives.
Devour Those Ugly Thoughts Before They Devour YOU
How do we know if the little HUGE envy beast is welling up within us? He’s subtle and may slip in without warning. The only way to keep him from sneaking up on us is to always be listening to ourselves. We need to stand watch at the gates of our minds. We must bring every thought into captivity. Once I noticed these thoughts cropping up in my heart, I decided platform building isn’t for me.
The first thought I caught myself having was–
- She STOLE MY idea!!! (If you think it’s you, it probably isn’t. And no worries, I beat that nasty thought down!)
I came across an article that was almost the same as one I was working on. (Not really-just the same subject) My reaction was pretty snooty. Oh. MY. Goodness!!!! Is this actually ME??? Why, yes it is…I am a sinful mess.
Conclusion to bad thought #1: There is nothing new under the sun. People are writing on similar subjects every day. God can actually use HER article too! And for the record, she didn’t steal anything.
- Why can’t my stuff be as good as hers/his??
In what lifetime do I get to have all of the gifts and talents of everyone else, including the ones I already have? I can only use what God has given to me. And I should be thankful, not envious.
- Why can’t I reach as many people as he/she does??
This girl had several THOUSAND likes on her page. I have 96. Pssht. But I have to ask myself-whose “Like” symbol really matters here on earth when it is all said and done? I can’t and shouldn’t compare myself to the ministry or influence that someone else has.
- They “Unliked” me or quit “Following” me. And I don’t “Like” it. But, ultimately I follow Jesus. Am I trying to draw a following of others so they might follow Him or…me??
- What “Method” can I use to get more interest in my stuff? How do I get an audience? Again, I had to ask myself why do I even want that? I feel like my motives are mostly good, mostly. But I need to clean out the dross so that my pursuit of “Methods” won’t stand in the way of my true “Mission”.
Back to Home Base
I uncovered some sinful attitudes when I began focusing on building an empire of people to listen to me. I didn’t like what I saw. Bottom line? If corruption in my Methods corrupt my Mission-God’s Mission, then they have to go.
But don’t worry-this isn’t a boycott. I’ll still be poking around sharing your pithy comments, parenting blunders or powerful dissertations. The difference is that I have released the imaginary strings in my mind that wish for anyone to reciprocate and help me in return.
And YOU build your platform. I am not trying to make you feel bad if this is what you feel led to do. It is my hope that sharing my struggle will help you from falling into the traps I found myself in.
So, I’m going back to why I started this to begin with-I am focusing on “Building Up”. I still want to build others up with my writing by ministering the truth of God’s Word. I also want to build up others who are on mission with me for the sake of the gospel.
And go ahead, “Like” my pages or “Follow” me. You won’t feed my pride. (much… *wink*)
I am trusting and praying that Jesus will provide doors of utterance as He sees fit in my life-both BIG and small…and smaller. I just want to be faithful with the message of hope He gave to me!
I am on Facebook and Twitter @christylouhoo , find me if you wanna! lol!
Photo Credit: Creation Swap, Small/Life/Community Group, Joshua Timmer